A Song for the Soul
Trevor
punched Terry right in the gut, leaving his ex on the floor trying to catch his
breath. "Just get the fuck out of my house and don't come back until I
have your stuff ready for you to pick up."
Terry
struggled to a stand with his hand on this chest. "Fine. You've made your
point. But, can I at least get a few of my things now? Like my toothbrush?
That'd be nice don't you think?"
Trevor
pointed down the hallway to the bathroom while throwing an empty beer carton at
Terry." Here, put your bathroom stuff in here and take my duffle bag for
some clothes. Just hurry the fuck up. I'm sick of seeing your face. What you
did to me makes my stomach turn and my skin crawl. You disgust me, asshole."
Terry tossed
the beer box across the room. "You're duffle bag is all I need. Calm down.
I'm going, I'm going."
"Calm
down? You're asking me to calm down. You fucked another dude after you said I
was your only one! You said you loved me. You're just a player. No, you're not
even good enough to be a player. You're just a liar. A fucking dumbass liar at
that."
Terry
scrambled about, collecting the things he'll need for at least a few days.
"Hurry
your sorry ass up. You'll be fine. You're going to your momma's house
anyway." Trevor stomped across the room to the wet bar and made him a
martini. He couldn't help but shake his head, fighting back the tears. Don't cry. Don't cry. Trevor did his
best to hold onto his anger. The last thing he wanted was for Terry to see him
cry. Trevor's heart was broken, but he knew he couldn't allow himself to feel
that way. He had to be strong. Trevor thought about the song Terry had written
and made for him. Trevor had the song on his MP3 as well as his laptop and PC.
Trevor
did his best to ignore his thoughts of taking him back. "No, I can't do
that. Never will I allow myself to be anything less than my partner. My partner
will be equal," Trevor mumbled to himself as he plugged in his laptop and
sat on the sofa.
"What
was that?" Terry called from the back of the house.
"Just
talking to myself. Just get your shit and go." Trevor yelled back.
As
Trevor began to play the song Terry had made for him, his heart melted, leaving
him with the pain he'd tried so hard to hide. Tears rolled down his cheek as
the song played discretely in his ear buds. Damnit.
I knew I shouldn't have played that song.
Trevor
caught a glimpse of someone out of the corner of his eye. He quickly swiped the
tears from his face and turned. "What? You're not gone yet?"
"I'm
on my way out. I just wanted to let your know that I still care for you and
love you deeply. I accept my mistake and respect your decision. But, it will be
a long time before I'm over you. It may not seem like it now, but you're the
best thing that had every happened to me." Terry continued his spiel.
As soon
as Trevor could get a word in, he said, "Terry. Sit." He firmly
slapped the cushion next to him. "We've been together for how long?"
"Six
years." Terry said with a smile. "And, by the way, that bit about me
cheating on you. That was never true. First, I wanted to distract you. I know.
It could've been with better taste. But, that's beside the point. We're as good
now as we ever were." Terry pushed the button on the stereo remote and set
the surround sound.
As soon
as the tune filled the room, Trevor let the tears fall. "You do love me.
You really do."
"Come
on in guys!" Terry called.
A group
of friends came in through the back door, "Happy Anniversary!"
Trevor
buried his face into Terry's shoulder, wiping his tears on Terry's shirt.
"I don't know what to say."
"Well,
I know what I want to say. I love you and there's not a single soul I want to
be connected to and that's yours." Terry turned up the song and started
singing it, as if serenading.
The
crowd sang along and Trevor gave Terry a passionate kiss and said he was sorry
for even believing such rubbish. Trevor rubbed Terry's belly and said,
"Are you okay. I hit you pretty hard."
"I'll
survive. Now, let's dance. After all, this is your song."
Trevor
reached his arms around Terry, stood, and swayed slowly to the music. Trevor
whispered, "I love you too."
*****
Thank
you all for taking the time to read this. By the way, there is really a song
that was written by me and dedicated to Nicholas. The song is being sold under
my real name James Boyd. If you're interested in hearing the song and
supporting my expenses to have it mastered, the links are below.
My song is the 11th song on the
album titled Lonely Miles. The name of the song is My Soul's Song. It was
written about my love for Nicholas. The song is only .99 cents and any
purchases would be most encouraging and thoughtful; Ratings would also be a
nice feature. Thank you.
Here are
the links:
Love the song! :)
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